Hmm, I wonder?

So I'm an extremely inquisitive person, my mind is constantly wondering about so many things. I question my relationships with other, I wonder about different ways people think, I wonder about certain rules & most of all I wonder why common sense isn't really common!

All in all, life isn't meant to be figured out. I'm working on not trying to figure it all out & try to just allow things to happen. "Patience is a virtue" for sure!

What's better?

As you know I've been working on the proper way to forgive people, right? Well in the mist of me working on that & forgiving the one who hurt me worse, I received a letter from them full of being apologetic. See when you're working on yourself & doing the right thing, right things will follow. I couldn't have gotten a better letter at a better time. I do believe it is easier to accept an apology when you've already forgave that person. : )

Kirk Franklin - I Smile.wmv

I must admit I wasn't really feeling this song at first, but now I LOVE IT! I found myself humming it this entire week. :)

Speak it. Live it?

People are constantly talking about their relationships with God and how holy and sanctified they are. My question is are you actually living the life style you claim to have? Or you speaking those things about yourself to convince others pf the life you wish you had? You might even be saying those things to place yourself above other, and in all actually you are right along with the others.

People stop bragging about your relationship with God & just let your light shine! There is nothing at all wrong with talking about the goodness of God, but when you start to act as though you are better than others & mistake free it becomes out of control. Live your life pleasing to Him --remember He is the one that will be the judge in the end, not the ones you are trying to prove yourselves to her on Earth.

A friend of mine said "If someone were to read your life like a book, would they find Jesus in its Pages?!" So as you go around claiming to be holier than thou, are you actually LIVING the life as order by the Lord? Don't just seak of His word, but life by & of his word.

Love you all : )

Chai breakfast tea

The best tea I've had in a long time. For people who don't know too much about my--I'm a tea LOVER!! Oh yea, I also added some French Vanilla creamer to this delicious morning treat :) yummmmy!

Chance after chance

Hmm, so, I often wonder how many time do/should a person be given chances. I mean, in relationships of all sorts i.e friends, work, school, partners, you know all of them.  I know there are people in this world who intentionally do others wrong, but for the rest what categories do they exactly fall into? Now that I finally know how to forgive, at least I think I know--what happens next? I've been in touch with the main person who needed to be forgiven in my life for the past couple of weeks. We've know each other for close to 10yrs & now that this person has been forgiven in my heart I'd love to start fresh with them. I've prayed about it & cannot find any wrong in this situation. I was done wrong by this person (nothing too bad), but I've overcome & am quite satisfied with our current relationship (friendship). My confusion comes from the whole part about giving the person another chance in my life (not in a partnership kind of way). I'm just wondering was I suppose to forgive, move on & leave them in the dust? Or is our current status suppose to be like this? SMH! I hate being confused....

Finally happy

I feel as though day after day I am getting freed (delivered) from people. I'm at peace with the decisions in my life that have been made lately & not looking for my answers via people. I went to see an old friend, who I love with all my heart & talking to them confirmed my deliverance. I can finally say I've found joy & peace again. I'm finally happy again! :)

"He's Able" - Voices of Unity featuring Darwin Hobbs

WIDE AWAKE!

So my mind has been on everything else, but on school. I even realized I miss my first assignment for one of my classes, not my fault, I blame the snow/ice storm lol. I heard from an old friend today, who I've been in prayer for the past few weeks. I was not expecting to hear from this person in a long time, if even ever again. this is a friend I've always considered near and dear to my heart, I've got so much love for them.

It's crazy how you cannot sleep sometimes because someone is on your mind. Well I guess that is the reason I am still up. Well as I try to drift off to sleep, I pray to God that person is delivered & blessed beyond measure when they decide to get things together. I have so much hope for them & know one day they will be able to get through-- because God is Able...

My theme!

Some favorites of mine

These are a few of my favorite things....

"It's nice to be important, but more important to be nice"

"My life is a story written by me, the only problem is that it's written in pen so the mistakes cannot be erased"

"Love of my life, you are my friend"

"You love me despite myself"

My past, washed away.

Don't forfeit your vision from the mistakes of your past!

I cannot stand people that hold your past against you, as if you are not able to change. When will some people realize people change, some for better and others for worse--all in all no one remains the same. I will not let my past play a negative part in my present nor my future. I also will not allow others to "judge" me based on the happenings of my past.

Alicia Keys said in the song Lesson Learned "It's called the past-cause I'm getting past & I ain't nothing like I was before..."

My baby

WOW! I'm so inspired by the people in my life. It is an amazing feeling to be surrounded by people who are awesome-all in different ways. We all say at one point in our lives how we want to get rid of negative people in our lives & keep the positive ones around. If you've never said that, I know I have & I'm thankful for the positive people in my life! I'm in the process of starting up an organization, which I consider to be my vision. I'm still in the pregnancy stage of this baby (my vision) but the people around me that know about this baby have provided me with so much inspiration. I am inspired everyday and amazed all the time.

My best friend and I are pretty close, she was one of the first to know about this baby I'm about to birth. She has been fasting and in prayer with me, I am so grateful for her. She is the type of person who, when she finally puts her mind to something & her mind is made up consider the job done. I get inspired by things like that. She gave me very much feedback about baby & again I'm so thankful. She's put of with me in all my non-sense & in that I know she will be blessed.

My mentor is freaking awesome too, she is a person I know I can call on about anything or any  problem I have. I told her about my baby and we too provided a lot of advise for me. she even signed me up for a program that is going to allow me to be a better person to this baby. I'm so thankful!

My parents are great, real & uplifting. Words cannot describe my feelings toward my family, but I get emotional thinking about it-so we won't go there. I told my parents about my baby & my-oh-my were they encouraging. I know I can always count on them & they definitely proved themselves when hearing about my baby.

I haven't told everyone about this baby, because, as I said before I'm still in the pregnancy stage. But, I do know God has blessed me with this & I will not fail him.

Get ready, get set....Take off!

So I've been motivated and inspired to start something new in my life. I've been thinking about it, I've see someone close to me do it (still doing it) & came through with wonderful results. I've put my mind to it  have finally decided to do it! I've already started, basically, but now I'm going to begin the real deal. I'm excited about it & cannot wait to see the results. I bet you know what I'm talking about, don't ya? Welp, yup that's it--I can't say the word because I don't want to jinx myself. I'm ready, my engine has been started & I'm about to take off! : )

Take these, please!

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/PLX5F2S


http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/KNSJDNP

Going crazy!

Okay so it snowed here in GA Sunday evening & I've been literally inside my house since 1PM Sunday afternoon--I'm about to lose my mind! I even snapped today on my mom & sister, can somebody say cabin fever? School has been cancelled all week, Wednesday bible study has been cancelled, I haven't been to work, I cannot go to the store and I'm about to go crazy. I've caught up on every movie there is out there to watch & all. I have hours on top of hours on my iTunes & these songs have gave me a sense of peace, but something's gotta give. I have sent out extra prayers for the homeless & people without power/heat/food. I am every grateful for my family, warm house, food and all though. So I guess maybe I should stop complaining. Back to my music I go!

I will obey

So, I've been fasting and in prayer for somethings the past week & different things have been reveled to me on a daily basis-I'm so grateful! I was debating yesterday (last night) about sending out a letter to an old friend about some things I had on my mind. During the process of my fast I am reading one chapter of Psalm in the morning and one chapter of Proverbs at night. Proverbs 9 was what I read, and allowed me to come to the conclusion not to send the letter. A summary of that chapter, to me, was basically to provide criticism to those that want it and want to do the "right" thing and others who are in the wrong, know it and not willing to change leave them alone-God will deal with them. In my letter I wasn't necessarily telling this person off, but saying a lot of things that person could change to provide a better life for them self; nothing they haven't heard before. Clearly this person is not ready to change their lifestyle, so it just might not be my place to tell them other wise. Thank God for understanding!

Wrote it, send it?

I'm more like the type of person that can express my feelings via paper rather than in person. Well really, it depends on my relationship with that other person and the way they act on their emotions, if you know what I mean. It's kind of hard to explain, like ok for example, if I've know a person a little while and have to tell them something important, something they might not want to hear, I usually just write it down and throw it away. If I've know a person for a long time I usually tell them how I feel based on how I know they might react to what I need to say. If I know a person is sensitive, I usually write it and throw it away. If it's a person how can handle it, I politely say what needs to be said, and we move on. Ok with all of that said lol, I wrote a letter to someone yesterday.The letter was a pretty long one about what I think that person needed to be told. The letter wasn't at all rude, but it also wasn't all nice. I've known this person for a little over 5yrs, which isn't too long but not too short; but this person has really changed a lot in the past 3yrs. I even placed the letter in an addressed envelope with their name on it, but cannot seem to make a decision on whether I should send it off or not. I really feel as though the letter will help them, but at the same time I have no idea if it's my place to say something about the situation this person is in and a possible way out. I feel as though I'm talking (typing) in circles, so I guess I'll just sleep on it once again.

Are you in the dark?

This was so good, I just couldn't keep it to myself: I was reading Proverbs last night & chapter 4:19 in the message Bible said "But the road of wrongdoing gets darker and darker-travelers can’t see a thing; they fall flat on their faces."

Love & Forgiveness

So, I clearly haven't been blogging and been focused on some other thing going on in my life. I really am beginning to think I've found my "peace of mind" : ) I've been at peace with a lot of the decisions I've been making the past couple of days & I hope this satisfaction continues--but anything is possible. I feel as though I am finally being delivered from people and their negativity. My best friend and I are doing a 3week fast, praying about a few different things such as: the proper way to forgive, guidance, understanding and a few other things. I really realize that a lot of answers to prayers come via fasting, reading your Bible and praying--really seeking the Lord for your needs. The different things that have been revealed to me in the past few days are amazing, I'm excited to see what this year is going to bring.