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If we question decisions we've made on a consistent basis did we make the right decision?

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Who's perfect?

Today in class I got an unexpected grade on a math test & was reallllly upset about it! I mean yes, I can blame myself, but in this case I can blame the teacher too. I'm not going to go into to blaming different people, I'll just stick to the topic at hand.

I wasn't the only one who got a bad grade a few of my friends & classmates did as well. What stuck out to me most was my anger & a friend of mine's anger. People think I try to play miss perfect & I say if they only knew my thoughts. My friend said she wanted to cuss somebody out after looking at that grade & I couldn't do nothing but agree! I have plenty of faults: bad attitude people, talking back & I cuss lots of people out in my head on a regular basis.  I'm trying to work on my attitude, talking back & when those things are in line I'm sure my telling cussing people out thoughts will go away too. LOL I'm human too! HA!

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My light

I pray everyday that the Lord allows his light to shine through me so that I can be a light to those around me. Yesterday in conversation with a friend she really confirmed my prayers. She mentioned how much she's seen me evolve & how the Lord is using me & it shows through my life. It makes me so emotional really because I try my best to live my life according to him. I just want my life to speak for me & draw people closer to me so I can draw people closer to Him.

Canton Jones has a song call "Worship You" (posted beneath this blog) this song is my LIFE. I'll list the lyrics and highlight my favorite parts, enjoy while you listen/read. Actually, I have to bold the entire song because EVER lyric speaks to me!

Lyrics to Worship You :

[Chorus:]
I submit my spirit
Even if it comes to tears
I worship You [x2]
I give up all my pride
I let You come inside
I worship You [x2]

[Verse 1:]
I won't pray all fancy cause
All I need is an answer from You Lord
I'm on my face in my living room
And the devil wants to send me to my doom
Got my hands stretched wide
Tears I ain't tryin to hide
Lord please come inside
None of me and all of You
Do what You want to do
With my life I worship You
Let Your Spirit fill my space
Draw me nearer to your face
You are welcome in this place
And experience Your love and grace
With all that I have
I worship You

[Chorus]

[Verse 2:]
When the Spirit hits
I get sentimental and I
Lay aside accolades and credentials
Cause I worship You
I worship You
In the beauty of holiness
I long to draw nearer to You
I give it all, won't tease You
I want my worship to
Please You, please You
Let Your Spirit fill my space
Draw me nearer to your face
You are welcome in this place
And experience Your love and grace
I worship You

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
I want You to come inside and I worship You
I give up all my pride and I worship You
You be Dad and I'll be boy, Lord I worship You
No one can steal my joy so I worship You

All of you & none of me

Life & death

Of course I couldn't let the night go by without speaking on the Troy Davis  story. I really don't have much to say, but may the Lord have mercy on everyone involved. I'm personally completely against capital punishment whole-hearty without a shadow of a doubt. I believe God allows different things to happen in our lives to wake us up & know He is the ultimate decision maker.

I pray Mr. Davis had his life right with God & will forever rest in peace. I pray for all parties involved and may God be with them during their time of mourning. I pray the Lord provides peace to all hurt by this situation. Most of all I pray we can see what good can come out of this situation. God is good & He is real!

Stuck in my head

I've been singing this song LITERALLY since 3pm today

goodness gracious

So this week at school (even though it's only Tuesday) has been a lot! My work load has been sickening. I'm so thankful for my classmates though, because without them I just would have no clue of what is going on. I guess we are each other's brains.

Welp, back to my lesson plan & studying for this math test.

By the way I don't plan on Facebooking for a while. I tend to like blogging & tweeting better :) I've recently saved all my FB pictures to an external hard drive, so once May hits I'll be FB free! Why am I holding out til graduation? I honestly have the slightest clue.... ok ok enough of the procrastination, back to this work I go....

Is something wrong?

Ever felt like you've  done something to someone & not quite sure what? Yup. that was me today. Maybe I did something I'm totally unaware of or maybe the person just hasn't been having a good week. Hopefully I didn't do anything & not know about it..... There has just been an uneasy feeling lately & I can't quite put my finger on it. I pray things get better. And if it's something I did I hope they tell me what's the problem.

I's free now!

Yup, so the letter was completed last night. Funny thing is that when I was typing the last word of the letter the song "The Storm is Over" began to play on my iTunes CONFORMATION, right!?

He called this evening & I answered. I said I wrote a letter, do you want me to read it or send it? He said read it...So I did. He was silent at first then say okay & I thanked him for all the happenings he's provided me with. We hung up with an unclear goodbye, then be called back; I answered & he also sincerely thanked me for all I've done. The last goodbye I  believe was an official goodbye & I feel good, clear & complete about it.

Now that the page has been turned I'm excited (nervous) about what's next in my life.

Maybe I'll post the letter (without giving away the identity of this person) on my blog a little later. Or not. Maybe!

Yup

After talking to a great friend of mine whose life I really admire I came to the conclusion I would write a letter & send it. I picked a letter instead of a verbal conversation is because I wanted to make sure all my thoughts were expressed in the proper manner. I wrote it & plan on sending it tomorrow. :) I feel relieved!

I feel as though I can finally turn the page in my life and stop staying in the same chapter!

Is everyone worth of an official GoodBye?

So I've know is guy for quite sometime & Lord knows we've just really grown up & grown apart. I grew to be a soon to be college graduate & he's grown to be a member of the Georgia Department of Corrections. I blogged a few days ago about going to new levels in Christ & noticed I just cannot give my complete all until a few more bags (people/things) are dropped off. This is not the first time I've been in this situation & wanted to cut him out of my life. SMH! This time I'm beyond for real & KNOW that he has to GO! Family included. Over the years I've known him I also built a good relationship with his family.

**No we are not dating, JUST FRIENDS!**

My only since of confusion comes from the good bye. I just don't know whether to tell him, write him or ignore him (keeping him in the dark). I mean I wouldn't want someone to completely stop talking to me & I not know why. Hmmmm...I  just don't know what to do. Whatever it is I want to hurry up & get it done. I mean does everyone need an official goodbye???

Just a test

Trying to help someone with a project.

New levels

I'm usually a quiet emotionless person at church unless I'm really touched by a song or powerful word.  Today was completely different! Church started off regular; prayer, singing & worship. In the mist of the ordinary I felt a little uneasy, not sure why but I did. Long story short, I've been in prayer for the past few months for a closer walk with God & a new level in Christ. I really believe I got my breakthrough today at church (conformation included.)

I live by Matthew 6:33 "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all of these things will be added unto you"

I choose to seek  after God's own heart so that I don't live life in doubt/worry/fear because I KNOW God WILL supply.

For whatever reason

I've been soooo emotional lately & it's really bothering me. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not one to cry about things, especially small stuff.

I've just about everyday since Saturday. SMH! Saturday my tears came from confusion. Sunday my tears came from joy. Monday the tears came from someone I miss too much. Tuesday...SMH! Tuesdays tears came from stress, confusion & frustration.

All of these tears I've shed the past few days have provided me somewhat of a clear head. My best-friend tells me all the time It's good to cry sometimes. Well hopefully I'm done with all of that & back to being my jolly ole self.

One thing I know for sure is God is working something out in the supernatural because all of this confusion & frustration isn't like Him. I must have something great coming for me right around the corner ;-)

GRE!

So I got my refund from school today (just a few dollars) & the first thing I did was register for my GRE exam. I'm too nervous!